I have a friend named Kate. And she’s a gem…really she is.
My last month in Orlando was an apparent gift from Beezelbub, but she countered that with Love, support, and sweetness.
You know… The things that people who CAN do choose to do…because they love you.
Well yesterday I was at work, and suddenly felt an anxiety attack forming in the clouds of my chest. Why? I haven’t had one of those in so long! I have no answers…
So I retreated to the backroom for some pranayama and Chinmaya Dunster. And effectively, went to my happy place.
But that happy place was in my old apartment in Orlando. Languishing about. Praying at my shrines. Playing with Zeni. Milling about #nekkid.
I started crying.
Then, in my mind, I was strolling about Orlando going to all of my favorite places. Seeing my friends. Going to yoga at the lake. Walking downtown.
Then I messed around and looked in my phone at a group picture of my students from my old job.
I started bawling.
Then a song came on – “My Melancholy Baby” by Ella Fitzgerald.
At this point I’m convulsing and have lost all composure. My manager sent me home. I was an embarrassed and teary eyed mess.
I have no idea what triggered the breakdown, but I admit – this transition is difficult.
Today I’m much better!!
What does any of this have to do with Kate? Because these arrived in the mail today from her. Oh, what timing!!!
I love Kate like Brick loves lamp.